being human is exhausting. having a memory with a patchwork of trauma makes moving through emotions slower and sometimes harder. past love and lovers make me want to runaway ... into the forest, the ocean or just a lulling dream. forgiving and forgetting is possible but, Forgetting is easier then remembering all that pain. I'm going to retreat, forget, cast spells and brew potions until i see a future that forgives and forgets with love and compassion. time passes often inelegantly and without grace.